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I just hate conflict.

That was my client’s answer when I asked her why she hadn’t spoken up in a staff meeting. . . and when I asked another client why she hadn’t protested her mother-in-law’s disregard of her baby’s nap time. . . and when I asked another client why she let her husband badger her. . . .

I hear it a lot.

To be completely honest, I hear it from myself, too. I have a habit of asking, “What’s going on?” when I notice that I’m tense or withdrawing. The answer is often, “I hate conflict.”

The idea that conflict is bad turns out to be a popular one! But is it true? It’s worth questioning, because fear of conflict seems to have some painful outcomes: it prevents people (including me) from speaking up, which then causes them (and me) to experience regret and, worse, allows bad things to go unchecked.

So, let’s do The Work. I invite you to recall an instance where you avoided conflict and answer the questions along with me.

An instance of my own that I have been ruminating on, which I’ll use as an example, is the last time I saw my cousin, Nick. We were sitting around his kitchen table, laughing and enjoying a great dinner, when he told a racist joke that included a racist epithet. I flushed with embarrassment and burned with a desire to speak up, but I did not, because I was afraid of conflict. What were the circumstances of your instance of conflict avoidance?

Conflict is bad. Is it true? Yes. I hardly ever see my cousin, and I want to enjoy myself; arguing with him would be unpleasant. It would also be bad manners to argue with my host.

Can you be absolutely certain it’s true? As I get still with this question, images of non-violent protest – conflict with dignity – arise. This idea prompts images of other dignified conflicts: whistleblowers, investigators, that brave man who stood in front of the tank in Tiananmen Square. So, no, I cannot be absolutely certain it’s true.

How do you react, what happens, when you believe that conflict is bad? I burn with the effort of staying silent. Then I burn with shame for staying silent. I treat Nick like he’s fragile, a man who cannot handle disagreement. I treat our relationship like it’s fragile, too, even though there’s a lot of love between us. I also do nothing to correct his ignorance, which means he’ll probably embarrass himself again, maybe even get in real trouble.

Who would you be without the thought that conflict is bad? I’d be free! I’d speak up! I imagine the same scene playing out without that thought. I’d say, “Whoa! You can’t say that, man!” By doing that, I return responsibility for the embarrassment of this moment to Nick – I am no longer the one who (in my thinking) has bad manners or is making things unpleasant. I feel better in my body, no longer hot, but grounded and with my shoulders back.

Turn the thought around. . .

To the opposite: Conflict isn’t bad. What’s the evidence that this turnaround is just as true, if not truer, than the original thought? In this instance, conflict is a corrective. Also, his joke was bad, not my argument with it. Beyond this instance, the same is true: it is good to challenge bad ideas and bad actions. In other words, sometimes conflict is necessary.

To the self: My thinking about conflict is bad. Evidence? It’s outdated, for sure. Maybe when I was a little girl, the rule to not contradict my elders made sense. But I’m not a little girl anymore. I am a woman, and a woman uses her voice. This outdated thinking prevented me from seeing the dignity of “fighting the good fight.” It prevented me from seeing the ugliness of artificial harmony.

The concept that conflict is bad has very deep roots in me. It also comes up for most of the women that I coach. Let’s quit it, friends! It holds us back. It holds back the causes we value. Imagine if we all embraced these turnarounds and practiced actually loving conflict – like, Oh, goody! I get to speak up!?

I’m going to try it, and I challenge you to do the same. The hard part for me is taking the first step, so I’ll give myself the gift of a script. When I hear something I disagree with, I’ll say, “Whoa!” What will you do to help yourself embrace this new mindset and practice?

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  • Jean Marie says:

    I have had many similar moments. There are times I know that to state my preference ‘will’ lead to strong consequences. In the case of Nick, he will say rude things he will regret but by his saying those things he ruins the evening of all there. Is it worth the conflict when you are there for such a short time and wish to enjoy the others after his time telling the insipid joke? Conversely if you were in his company often then I think it would be good for you to voice your preferences. This way he will know not to do it again, or he will tell you that he chooses to be who he is. You don’t like it, you don’t have to stay or re-visit. I don’t think there is one right way to handle conflicts. We’re dealing with so many different personalities and belief systems that it is a hard know when to stand up for ourselves, or allow rudeness to prevail. This is an on-going quandary in the lives of us ‘who care’ and don’t want to hurt others. There are so many who could not care less to act in ways that are proper, mannerly, courteous, etc.

    • Allison Evans says:

      Thanks, Jean Marie! I respect what you say here. You are a wise woman, who has seen and lived so much! But, as for me, I do want to speak up when I hear racist or sexist comments. I no longer want to protect the feelings of people who are racist or sexist, because I realize now that I do so at the expense of people more deserving of my concern.

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